Oh, D.O.M.S.


Oh. My. Hell. I feel like I could die. Last night I got the worst nights sleep because of it.

Two days ago I did my first weights workout in who knows how long and I’m paying for it. I felt DOMS kicking in yesterday, but like I knew, the 2nd day is always the worst! I can barely move. Sitting down is THE WORST.


But, I have to admit…I secretly enjoy it. It means I pushed myself. It means I’m getting back in to the swing of things.


As long as I keep moving, I’ll be ok. It’s just when you sit down and are sitting for a while and then have to get up & move. Oh, geez…torture!!!!

How do you deal with DOMS? Any tips/tricks?


Downward Spiral

Folks, I’m in a downward spiral to heading back to my previous weight of 275+ lbs. 

Since meeting my husband 3 1/2 yrs ago, to getting married last year, to having a baby 8 months ago, I’m having an EXTREMELY hard time finding the time to workout. 

You would think because we have custody of my husband’s two kids (daughter age 14 & son age 11) that it would make it easier to workout because I could leave the baby with them for an hour & go get a workout in, but sadly that’s not the case. His daughter, though she’s 14 yrs old physically, emotionally/socialy, etc., she’s about 8. Would you let your 8 year old watch a baby by themselves? I wouldn’t. 

I can’t always rely on evenings when my husband is home to go workout either. He doesn’t always get off work on time. There’s times I have no clue when he’s coming home. Which puts us back to I have no one to watch the kids while I go workout. I want to use my workout time as my alone time, so taking everyone with me isn’t really an option. 

So you say “Go when your husband gets home from work.” Sometimes that’s not an option. Right now, I’m the only one that can get the baby to go to sleep. His bedtime is at 8 pm. Even in the middle of the night if my husband tries to feed him, he doesn’t like it & screams. So once baby goes to sleep, I’m done for the night. 

Combine all of this with the fact that I’m an emotional eater & that just spells disaster. Any time I get stressed or depressed, all I want to do is inhale EVERYTHING! It doesn’t matter if it’s healthy or not. 

This go around with losing weight I’m trying to do it the healthy way. Seven years ago when I lost 114 lbs, I worked out like crazy & ate crazy too. Sunday – Friday I was lucky if I ate 1,000 calories a day. Then Saturdays, after my workout was done, I’d eat anything & everything. 

I don’t want to do that this time around. 

I’ve even tried Couch to 5k programs to get me going again. Tonight is the 3rd time I started the program. Lol. I’ll go a week & do really good with workouts, etc & then I’ll go another 2-3 weeks where I’m barely able to get a workout in. 

You see this photo ^^^. That’s my fat face. That’s my face significantly puffier than even a year ago. That shirt I’m wearing is snug & it used to be pretty loose on me. The treadmill is hiding my gut.

My husband says I’m beautiful, but I don’t take compliments well. Plus I feel like he’s saying that because he’s my husband & is supposed to. 

This ^^^ is what I liked like when I met my husband. Look at my face shape, etc. It’s drastically different. 

I don’t know what I’ve got to do, but I’ve got to do something. I need someone to help keep me accountable for what I eat. I need someone to help keep me accountable for my workouts, etc. 

This was my run tonight using the Couch to 5k program (again). I’ve already told myself that tomorrow night I need to ride my bike for 30 min, even if it’s at 10 pm.

My self esteem is just in the toilet. I miss being as fit as I was. At this point I’m just grasping at straws to try & figure out what I need to do to get back to where I was. When I was thinner, I had more self confidence. In that 2nd picture above, I actually felt pretty. 

I know this entire post sounds like one giant excuse, but you have to remember that every family is different & not every family is able to function the same way. 

So…with that being said…do you have any suggestions for me? 

Things People Say

This last weekend, in a period of 2 days, I was asked TWICE if I was pregnant. For the record…the answer is NO!!! I find it interesting though that this question was asked at this particular time, because Rob and I have talked about having a kid together, but we’re just not sure. We had a more in depth conversation about it this last weekend than we’ve had before.

It makes me feel self conscious when these two people asked me this. I’m sure I’ve gained a little bit of weight lately because I just haven’t had time to workout (I have 2 jobs, 2 kids {the boyfriend’s} that need special attention, plus I’m trying/attempting to train for a 70.3).

Also…due to my weight loss, I have a decent sized muffin top. There are some shirts & dresses that no matter what I wear, it’s just not flattering on me.

I wonder if I’ve really gained THAT much weight that it looks more noticeable than it did before. When I was a big girl, I was asked once if I was pregnant, and honestly, I can kind of understand that because I was SO obese, it did kind of look like I did. But, I haven’t been asked since I lost weight if I was pregnant or not. It kind of struck a chord with me, ya know?

Sorry…just a little rant.

My Article – Proud Moment

Source: http://www.usatriathlon.org
Source: http://www.usatriathlon.org

A couple of months ago I got my USAT newsletter and there is a portion in there called “My Story”. I started reading through some of the articles & they are articles submitted by readers about their journey in triathlons & marathons.

I wasn’t sure how to submit my article, but I wanted to. So, I sent an email to them. They replied back and told me to write up an article, send a picture or two & they’d publish my story.

Well, guess what? The other day, I got my USAT newsletter and saw my picture in it! They published my story! You can read my story here.

Ever since I started losing weight, my whole goal has been to be a better me and inspire others. I want to show others that if I can do all that I’ve done, SO CAN YOU!!! I hope this article helps get my story out there & helps inspire others.

Me after Spudman 2013. I came in 3rd in my age group. :)
Me after Spudman 2013. I came in 3rd in my age group. 🙂

Speaking Engagement

I’m so excited!!! Earlier this week I was sent a message via Facebook asking if I wanted to come to a function this Saturday and speak about my weight loss and fitness!

The people that asked me to come speak are the organizers of the very first triathlon I ever did. It’s for their church.

I’m pretty excited. I’m kind of nervous. They want me to speak for about 5-10 minutes and then have a Q&A. I’m trying to decide if I want to put a PowerPoint presentation together or if I should just get up there and talk.

Either way, I’m super excited. I’ve been trying to think of ways to get my story out there lately and haven’t been able to really think of much, so I found it really cool that they sent me a message & asked me to come speak!

Me at 275 lbs.
Me at 275 lbs.

Lunch-Lady Arms

When you become an overweight person and then lose a bunch of weight, your skin doesn’t necessarily bounce back like the rest of your body does. When I lost all of my weight, I noticed I had what I like to call “lunch-lady arms”. You know that extra flab of skin under your arms…I’ve heard some people call them bat wings, relief society arms…I personally like lunch lady arms. Lol.

Well, for a long time, because of my lunch lady arms, if I would wear a tank top to workout in or go run in, I would get chafing really bad on my arms because it would rub. I would even put Body Glide on my arms and it would help for short runs, but for long runs, I was just screwed. My only saving grace was to wear a shirt with sleeves.

The chafing was HUGE and it would hurt super bad.
The chafing was HUGE and it would hurt super bad.

Here’s a little tidbit of information. After my first triathlon 4 years ago, the next spring, I looked in to getting skin removal surgery. I went to a consultation with a plastic surgeon and she did some measuring and I had 8 inches of extra skin on my arm! 8 inches!!! No wonder I would chafe!!! (On a side note, I never had the surgery. Can’t afford it.)

Well, the other night, I went to the gym to run and the only clean top I had was a tank top. Of course I forgot to take my Body Glide to the gym. I thought I was going to get some pretty bad chafing by the end of the night. To my surprise…I was chafe free!!! Yay!!!

How did this happen? Thanks to doing my weights & core workout consistently for the past 1 1/2 – 2 years, my arms have toned up and I don’t have 8″ of extra skin on my arms any more!

So…lunch-lady arms…BE GONE!!!

My BMI & Body Fat

This weekend I get to move!!! Yay!!! I’m so excited to be getting out of my mom and dad’s house.

With that being said, I am moving farther away from my gym, so I needed to get a gym membership at a gym closer to where I’ll be living. Thankfully my work offers a great deal with Gold’s Gym. The way it works is there are 3 plans to choose from…$30/mo, $25/mo or $20/mo…but because it’s through my work, it is all based off of your BMI and your Body Fat %. The reason they can do that is because my work will pay $1 towards your membership for each time you go up to 15 visits. So, the $30 plan becomes only $15 a month, etc.

That’s a really good deal for a gym membership, so I decided to sign up. Since my weight loss journey started 4 years ago, I’ve lost 114 lbs. and my weight still fluctuates every now and then. Because I’m very diligent about working out and trying to eat healthy, I thought for sure I’d be able to choose from the $25 or $20 plan.

When I went to the consultation, the girl was really nice. We talked about how I’ve lost all my weight and how I’ve done triathlons and marathons. We talked about how I struggle to eat enough calories, etc.

Then I had to step on the scale and she took my BMI and my body fat %. The scale said I weighed 188 lbs.!!! Then my BMI was 33 and my Body Fat was 27. In the “health” world, that is considered overweight. I got put on the $30 plan.

I didn’t think the numbers would have the effect it did on me. It’s not the money part that made me very frustrated, but those numbers really had an effect on me.

When I first started out losing weight and up until about 3 – 4 months ago, I weighed myself every Saturday morning and if the number on the scale didn’t go down, I would get very frustrated with myself. I was proud of myself for the past 3 months not weighing myself on a regular basis and if the number wasn’t going down, I wasn’t getting disappointed.

I don’t know how else to put it but just after the consultation, I got really depressed and felt really fat. It was a very demoralizing experience for me. It makes me want to work even harder to lose weight again and keep that number on the scale going down. Friday night I went to the gym and did my swim workout and then went home and did my bike workout that I missed on Thursday.

I knew at my weigh in when the scale said 188 lbs. that wasn’t correct. On 1/19/13 when I weighed myself I weighed in at 181.4, but I’m back to weighing myself every Saturday morning again. This last Saturday when I weighed in, I was 180.2. So, that helped a little that I lost 1.2 lbs.

It really depresses me that I’ve worked SO hard to lose the weight I have and in society’s mind I’m still overweight. It seems that it doesn’t matter that I’m doing triathlons, that I’m running marathons, and I’m getting ready to do my first ½ Ironman, I’m still overweight.

I know I shouldn’t let it bother me, but it does. It bothers me that I feel fat.