Running Rant

Ok, so I had a conversation on Facebook the other day & it just kind of irritated me. 

I’ve got an acquaintance that just had major surgery & got her first run in since surgery. Knowing how hard it is to get back to running after surgery I commented “Girl, if you need a running partner, give me a holler, I’d be happy to go with you!” You know, it would help with accountability, etc. She replied back with “Maybe when I’m faster…” I responded saying I’m far from being fast, the last time I ran, I ran a 13:45 mile. She proceeded to say I was a speed demon because she’s running like a 14:30 mile right now. 

Now, why can’t others see that dude, if it meant having a running partner I’d run a 14:30 pace. Speed shouldn’t stop people from running together. It wouldn’t kill someone who runs a 10:00/mile to slow down to run with someone who runs a 12:00/mile. 

I’ve never found a runner that is willing to slow down to run with someone else. Have you? I find that very sad. I find it sad also that a slower runner doesn’t want a running partner until they get faster. 

Aren’t we all in this to help better each other? 

Workout Update & Motivation

I’ve been really upset and depressed lately that I didn’t get to do Ragnar. I know, that sounds so trivial, but being overweight and seeing all my friends on Facebook talk about how they’ve been doing all these races and how they did Ragnar and how much fun it was, has really had me depressed. So, lately, my back has been feeling ok. The herniated disc hasn’t been giving me any pain, etc. So, last night, I really didn’t feel like doing a normal Beachbody workout, so I decided to go down to my apartment gym and try & run/walk on the treadmill.

Treadmill

Well, that lasted about 13 minutes/0.9 miles and then the treadmill BROKE!!! If you look at the picture I took, you can tell the treadmill already has issues and needs to be serviced. The belt isn’t centered, therefore it skips (if that’s the right word to use). But at 0.9 miles, the treadmill just shut down. It was like someone went and unplugged it, but it wasn’t unplugged. So…off I went to the elliptical trainer.

Elliptical

I was able to make it so when I was on the elliptical I was keeping the same pace I was as if I were on the treadmill. I normally am not a fan of the elliptical, but I didn’t really have a choice last night. I was sweating bullets and got a decent workout in. But, the GUESS WHAT? My feet did NOT fall asleep during my workout last night. I ended up going 3.07 miles and my feet didn’t fall asleep AT ALL. You know what that means, right? That means the epidural shot in my back and the physical therapy for my herniated disc are working. Yay!!!! I will take it easy, but I’m going to start running again.

I think I needed this break from running to give myself some perspective. When I tried running earlier this year, it was all about my pace and how fast I was running etc. Last night, I didn’t care how fast I was running or anything. I was just glad to be out there doing it.

While I was on the elliptical, I texted my husband to send me some motivation and here are some of my favorite motivation pictures I got from him:

 

I think my favorite is the giraffe/lion one!

Do you have a favorite motivational poster you’d like to share?

Ragnar & Epic Relays

Today my husband, my son & i packed stuff up to go fishing at East Canyon Reservoir. Fishing here is stirring up alot of memories & it’s making me really depressed. 

You see, East Canyon is a major exchange between van 2 & 1 for the Ragnar Wasatch Back.

If you’re unfamiliar with what Ragnar or the Epic Cache-Teton Relays are, let me enlighten you. 

The Ragnar Wasatch back is a 220 mile, 36 hr relay run through the Wasatch Mountain Range. You usually have a team of 12 runners. If you have 6 runners, you’re considered an “ultra” team. I’ve always wanted to have an ultra team. 

The Epic Cache-Teton Relay is the same type of race, except it goes from Logan, Utah to Teton Village in Jackson, Wyoming. The views throughout this run are breathtaking. The views of the Grand Teton National Forest are beautiful!!

What i like most about these races are the camraderie between you & the others on your team & other teams. You’re having so much fun, you forget you havent showered or slept in 2 days. I just dont know how else to describe it. 

I didn’t see any runners as we were driving to go fishing. But i saw the directional signs & i saw the 1 mile to go sign. I just miss it. 

Sadly, i can’t even run right now. I can’t run because i’ve got that herniated disc in my back & because of that, it makes my feet go numb after running about 1 1/2 miles. 😦

Maybe i can run both these races next year. The company i work for sponsors a team for both of these races. 

I’m almost to the point that i say “screw it” to my back & start running again any ways & just get used to running with numb feet. 

I might have to do that because there’s a sprint triathlon i want to do on Nov 4. And if i’m gonna do it i need to start training now. 

Oh, & the only fish that was caught while we were fishing today was caught by my husband. 

Back Issues

I’ve been having back issues for the past, oh, probably 6 months. Right down above my tailbone, in the small of my back, it hurts REALLY bad. It doesn’t feel like sciatica (had that when I was 2 1/2 months pregnant). I finally got tired of the pain and finally went to the doctor.

It took a month to get in to the doctor, but she did a physical exam and said that since I didn’t have any trauma to make my back hurt (I woke up one morning and got out of bed and it’s hurt ever since) that she wanted to do an MRI. I had an MRI on April 1st and it came back saying I had a moderately herniated disc between L5 and S1.

L5
See that spongy thing under L5 before you get to the sacrum? That’s the disc that the MRI says is herniated.

So, they said the treatment for that was a cortisone shot/epidural in my back and to do physical therapy. So I went in for the injection. It hurt like a b*tch. They told me it would take 3-4 days for it to kick in and for me to see a difference. I didn’t do physical therapy only because my husband started physical therapy right then for his shoulder so I talked to the P.T. & asked him how necessary P.T. was. He basically told me that one session would be good, but then he’d send me home with stretches and all would be good. Well, I figured since I’m doing the 21 Day Yoga Retreat through Beachbody that would work, so I didn’t do P.T.

3 weeks later and my back is still KILLING me. So, we called the doctor again. They’ve now prescribed me some Prednisone (fun, fun!) and told me to do P.T. This time I am doing P.T. I had my first session this last Monday.

My P.T. is awesome! I’ve been to him before when I broke my leg & ankle about 10 years ago. But, he listens to my story, does kind of a physical exam and starts working with me. Based off of my symptoms, he doesn’t think it’s a herniated disc. He thinks it has something to do with my S.I. Joint (I’m vaguely familiar with that). He did get concerned when at the end of the P.T. session I told him that when I walked in to therapy, my pain level was at a 4, but as I’m leaving it’s at a 7. NOTHING that we did in P.T. helped it and it should have relieved even the slightest bit of pain.

So, I got my P.T. a copy of my MRI and he’s going to take a look at it and see if he happens to see anything different. Yes, I know he’s not a doctor, but he’s got a lot of school and has to be familiar with how the body works to be a P.T.; therefore a second look at the MRI might help. Plus, we’ve decided to get a 2nd opinion on my back. I’ve got an appointment with a different doctor on Monday to see if they see anything different.

I just want my back to stop hurting. I can’t stand for long periods of time. I can’t sit for long periods of time. Yoga ends up being painful. Sitting on a bike hurts like a b*tch. Plus, when I go running, like clock work, at 1 1/2 miles, my left foot goes numb. I think, and so does my P.T., we think that has something to do with my back injury too.

So…I’ll keep you posted on all this crap too. 🙂

My Back…Again

I’ve  screwed up my back…yet again. I know what part of the cause is, but there’s not much I can do about it. Our mattress is a good 20 years old. It’s shot to hell. But, we can’t afford a new mattress right now. We have the eggshell thing under it to try & give my back more support, but there’s only so much you can do before it doesn’t help,  ya know? My back hurts so bad, that I can’t even fold laundry.

laundry

My house is literally drowning in laundry. But I can’t stand for very long, and I can’t sit for very long before my back starts hurting

I know part of the reason I keep screwing up my back is because I don’t have the core strength I used to have. But, to get that core strength back, I need for my back to not hurt. I’ve got a craving to go for a run too. But, it’s kinda hard to do that when you’re in SO much pain with your back.

I’d love to say that I’ve made a Doctor appointment, but I can’t afford to miss any more work than I already do. Plus, I don’t have the money for a co-pay either. So, I guess it’s just icy hot and ibuprofen until it feels better.

Downward Spiral

Folks, I’m in a downward spiral to heading back to my previous weight of 275+ lbs. 

Since meeting my husband 3 1/2 yrs ago, to getting married last year, to having a baby 8 months ago, I’m having an EXTREMELY hard time finding the time to workout. 

You would think because we have custody of my husband’s two kids (daughter age 14 & son age 11) that it would make it easier to workout because I could leave the baby with them for an hour & go get a workout in, but sadly that’s not the case. His daughter, though she’s 14 yrs old physically, emotionally/socialy, etc., she’s about 8. Would you let your 8 year old watch a baby by themselves? I wouldn’t. 

I can’t always rely on evenings when my husband is home to go workout either. He doesn’t always get off work on time. There’s times I have no clue when he’s coming home. Which puts us back to I have no one to watch the kids while I go workout. I want to use my workout time as my alone time, so taking everyone with me isn’t really an option. 

So you say “Go when your husband gets home from work.” Sometimes that’s not an option. Right now, I’m the only one that can get the baby to go to sleep. His bedtime is at 8 pm. Even in the middle of the night if my husband tries to feed him, he doesn’t like it & screams. So once baby goes to sleep, I’m done for the night. 

Combine all of this with the fact that I’m an emotional eater & that just spells disaster. Any time I get stressed or depressed, all I want to do is inhale EVERYTHING! It doesn’t matter if it’s healthy or not. 

This go around with losing weight I’m trying to do it the healthy way. Seven years ago when I lost 114 lbs, I worked out like crazy & ate crazy too. Sunday – Friday I was lucky if I ate 1,000 calories a day. Then Saturdays, after my workout was done, I’d eat anything & everything. 

I don’t want to do that this time around. 

I’ve even tried Couch to 5k programs to get me going again. Tonight is the 3rd time I started the program. Lol. I’ll go a week & do really good with workouts, etc & then I’ll go another 2-3 weeks where I’m barely able to get a workout in. 

You see this photo ^^^. That’s my fat face. That’s my face significantly puffier than even a year ago. That shirt I’m wearing is snug & it used to be pretty loose on me. The treadmill is hiding my gut.

My husband says I’m beautiful, but I don’t take compliments well. Plus I feel like he’s saying that because he’s my husband & is supposed to. 

This ^^^ is what I liked like when I met my husband. Look at my face shape, etc. It’s drastically different. 

I don’t know what I’ve got to do, but I’ve got to do something. I need someone to help keep me accountable for what I eat. I need someone to help keep me accountable for my workouts, etc. 

This was my run tonight using the Couch to 5k program (again). I’ve already told myself that tomorrow night I need to ride my bike for 30 min, even if it’s at 10 pm.

My self esteem is just in the toilet. I miss being as fit as I was. At this point I’m just grasping at straws to try & figure out what I need to do to get back to where I was. When I was thinner, I had more self confidence. In that 2nd picture above, I actually felt pretty. 

I know this entire post sounds like one giant excuse, but you have to remember that every family is different & not every family is able to function the same way. 

So…with that being said…do you have any suggestions for me? 

Couch to 5k & Personal Training

Life is just crazy, what can I say? I am finding it easier to find topics to blog about though, so that’s good.

I’ve decided to start a Couch to 5k program. I know I can do a 5k, obviously, because I just did one this last weekend. But I need help getting my speed up and being able to run, without walking, a complete 5k. So, figured I’d try out an app that I found on my phone.

Today was the first day of that workout. HOLY CRAP it seemed hard. It was 1 min running and 90 seconds walking, but for some reason it seemed harder than the 5k I did last Saturday. Weird. I can’t wait to see my progress too.

As some of you probably know, at one time I was going to school to be a personal trainer, but then family got in the way and I’ve never been able to go back.

Well, I posted something on Facebook the other day about how I miss it and I still want to be a personal trainer and one of my old neighbors contacted me and wants me to train her to do a 5k and then a 10k! Cool, huh? So I basically have my first client. It’ll be fun to see how it goes.