Back Issues

I’ve been having back issues for the past, oh, probably 6 months. Right down above my tailbone, in the small of my back, it hurts REALLY bad. It doesn’t feel like sciatica (had that when I was 2 1/2 months pregnant). I finally got tired of the pain and finally went to the doctor.

It took a month to get in to the doctor, but she did a physical exam and said that since I didn’t have any trauma to make my back hurt (I woke up one morning and got out of bed and it’s hurt ever since) that she wanted to do an MRI. I had an MRI on April 1st and it came back saying I had a moderately herniated disc between L5 and S1.

See that spongy thing under L5 before you get to the sacrum? That’s the disc that the MRI says is herniated.

So, they said the treatment for that was a cortisone shot/epidural in my back and to do physical therapy. So I went in for the injection. It hurt like a b*tch. They told me it would take 3-4 days for it to kick in and for me to see a difference. I didn’t do physical therapy only because my husband started physical therapy right then for his shoulder so I talked to the P.T. & asked him how necessary P.T. was. He basically told me that one session would be good, but then he’d send me home with stretches and all would be good. Well, I figured since I’m doing the 21 Day Yoga Retreat through Beachbody that would work, so I didn’t do P.T.

3 weeks later and my back is still KILLING me. So, we called the doctor again. They’ve now prescribed me some Prednisone (fun, fun!) and told me to do P.T. This time I am doing P.T. I had my first session this last Monday.

My P.T. is awesome! I’ve been to him before when I broke my leg & ankle about 10 years ago. But, he listens to my story, does kind of a physical exam and starts working with me. Based off of my symptoms, he doesn’t think it’s a herniated disc. He thinks it has something to do with my S.I. Joint (I’m vaguely familiar with that). He did get concerned when at the end of the P.T. session I told him that when I walked in to therapy, my pain level was at a 4, but as I’m leaving it’s at a 7. NOTHING that we did in P.T. helped it and it should have relieved even the slightest bit of pain.

So, I got my P.T. a copy of my MRI and he’s going to take a look at it and see if he happens to see anything different. Yes, I know he’s not a doctor, but he’s got a lot of school and has to be familiar with how the body works to be a P.T.; therefore a second look at the MRI might help. Plus, we’ve decided to get a 2nd opinion on my back. I’ve got an appointment with a different doctor on Monday to see if they see anything different.

I just want my back to stop hurting. I can’t stand for long periods of time. I can’t sit for long periods of time. Yoga ends up being painful. Sitting on a bike hurts like a b*tch. Plus, when I go running, like clock work, at 1 1/2 miles, my left foot goes numb. I think, and so does my P.T., we think that has something to do with my back injury too.

So…I’ll keep you posted on all this crap too. 🙂

My Back…Again

I’ve  screwed up my back…yet again. I know what part of the cause is, but there’s not much I can do about it. Our mattress is a good 20 years old. It’s shot to hell. But, we can’t afford a new mattress right now. We have the eggshell thing under it to try & give my back more support, but there’s only so much you can do before it doesn’t help,  ya know? My back hurts so bad, that I can’t even fold laundry.


My house is literally drowning in laundry. But I can’t stand for very long, and I can’t sit for very long before my back starts hurting

I know part of the reason I keep screwing up my back is because I don’t have the core strength I used to have. But, to get that core strength back, I need for my back to not hurt. I’ve got a craving to go for a run too. But, it’s kinda hard to do that when you’re in SO much pain with your back.

I’d love to say that I’ve made a Doctor appointment, but I can’t afford to miss any more work than I already do. Plus, I don’t have the money for a co-pay either. So, I guess it’s just icy hot and ibuprofen until it feels better.

Downward Spiral

Folks, I’m in a downward spiral to heading back to my previous weight of 275+ lbs. 

Since meeting my husband 3 1/2 yrs ago, to getting married last year, to having a baby 8 months ago, I’m having an EXTREMELY hard time finding the time to workout. 

You would think because we have custody of my husband’s two kids (daughter age 14 & son age 11) that it would make it easier to workout because I could leave the baby with them for an hour & go get a workout in, but sadly that’s not the case. His daughter, though she’s 14 yrs old physically, emotionally/socialy, etc., she’s about 8. Would you let your 8 year old watch a baby by themselves? I wouldn’t. 

I can’t always rely on evenings when my husband is home to go workout either. He doesn’t always get off work on time. There’s times I have no clue when he’s coming home. Which puts us back to I have no one to watch the kids while I go workout. I want to use my workout time as my alone time, so taking everyone with me isn’t really an option. 

So you say “Go when your husband gets home from work.” Sometimes that’s not an option. Right now, I’m the only one that can get the baby to go to sleep. His bedtime is at 8 pm. Even in the middle of the night if my husband tries to feed him, he doesn’t like it & screams. So once baby goes to sleep, I’m done for the night. 

Combine all of this with the fact that I’m an emotional eater & that just spells disaster. Any time I get stressed or depressed, all I want to do is inhale EVERYTHING! It doesn’t matter if it’s healthy or not. 

This go around with losing weight I’m trying to do it the healthy way. Seven years ago when I lost 114 lbs, I worked out like crazy & ate crazy too. Sunday – Friday I was lucky if I ate 1,000 calories a day. Then Saturdays, after my workout was done, I’d eat anything & everything. 

I don’t want to do that this time around. 

I’ve even tried Couch to 5k programs to get me going again. Tonight is the 3rd time I started the program. Lol. I’ll go a week & do really good with workouts, etc & then I’ll go another 2-3 weeks where I’m barely able to get a workout in. 

You see this photo ^^^. That’s my fat face. That’s my face significantly puffier than even a year ago. That shirt I’m wearing is snug & it used to be pretty loose on me. The treadmill is hiding my gut.

My husband says I’m beautiful, but I don’t take compliments well. Plus I feel like he’s saying that because he’s my husband & is supposed to. 

This ^^^ is what I liked like when I met my husband. Look at my face shape, etc. It’s drastically different. 

I don’t know what I’ve got to do, but I’ve got to do something. I need someone to help keep me accountable for what I eat. I need someone to help keep me accountable for my workouts, etc. 

This was my run tonight using the Couch to 5k program (again). I’ve already told myself that tomorrow night I need to ride my bike for 30 min, even if it’s at 10 pm.

My self esteem is just in the toilet. I miss being as fit as I was. At this point I’m just grasping at straws to try & figure out what I need to do to get back to where I was. When I was thinner, I had more self confidence. In that 2nd picture above, I actually felt pretty. 

I know this entire post sounds like one giant excuse, but you have to remember that every family is different & not every family is able to function the same way. 

So…with that being said…do you have any suggestions for me? 

Couch to 5k & Personal Training

Life is just crazy, what can I say? I am finding it easier to find topics to blog about though, so that’s good.

I’ve decided to start a Couch to 5k program. I know I can do a 5k, obviously, because I just did one this last weekend. But I need help getting my speed up and being able to run, without walking, a complete 5k. So, figured I’d try out an app that I found on my phone.

Today was the first day of that workout. HOLY CRAP it seemed hard. It was 1 min running and 90 seconds walking, but for some reason it seemed harder than the 5k I did last Saturday. Weird. I can’t wait to see my progress too.

As some of you probably know, at one time I was going to school to be a personal trainer, but then family got in the way and I’ve never been able to go back.

Well, I posted something on Facebook the other day about how I miss it and I still want to be a personal trainer and one of my old neighbors contacted me and wants me to train her to do a 5k and then a 10k! Cool, huh? So I basically have my first client. It’ll be fun to see how it goes.

Holy War 5k

Today was my second race this season. Was I prepared for it? Not really. Did I have fun? You bet!!!

Here in Utah there is a HUGE rivalry between the University of Utah & Brigham Young University (BYU). When they play each other in football it’s called the Holy War. They are playing each other next weekend. So the entire week before it’s called Rivalry week & there’s alot of festivities. This year it started out with a 5k.

My old triathlon coach was part of the organization & he was able to help me in registering for the event.

I knew it was going to be a tough run because it was being held at Sugarhouse Park. There is one specific hill there that just kicks your trash if you’re not prepared for it. It’s a short hill, but it’s steep. 

I ran this race of course rooting for the U of U. I decided I’d push E in his stroller through the race too. Then I was guaranteed a running partner. 

I had no goals EXCEPT to do better than I did in the Be Well 5k that was last week. I started out the race fairly strong. Then I walked the hills. 

As I came through the first lap (had to run 2 laps of the park) my old Coach was there cheering me on how that felt good. 

Like always, as of late, around mile 2 of my run one of my feet falls asleep (I think I just need inserts in my shoes). That makes it tricky to run because I don’t want to be running & land wrong on my foot & go down all because my foot is numb. 

So the 2nd lap I walked the up hills & tried to run as much as I could. 

I finally ran in to the finish & finished in 43:18! That’s about an 8 min PR from my 5k last week. It gave me the confidence I needed to keep going with this running stuff. 

Here’s a few pictures from the race: 

My next race is on 10/1. It’s another 5k & it’s free!!! I’ve been lucky & have been able to find a lot of free races lately. 

What is your next race? 

Mom Time

Mom Time…when & where do I find it?

About a month ago, my husband got put on graveyard shift until Sept. It’s taking a toll on me. I have NO time to myself. When I get home from work, I have a 13 yr old, 11 yr old & 3 month old to take care of. No, the 13 yr old & 11 yr old are not able to take care of themselves.

On my husband’s days off, the kids are either at their bio mom’s house or at school.

I try & use my workout time as my “me” time, but my 11 yr old son likes to go running with me & I want to encourage that activity. Plus it’s time for me & him to be together & just have fun.

But…I’m desperate for some “me” time. But I don’t have the funds to go do anything or take my kids to a sitter.

What do you do for “me” time? How do you find the time for it?


I’m already trying to set goals to keep me motivated to do my workouts.

Back in 2013 I did my first 1/2 Ironman and I LOVED it. My ultimate goal is to do a full Ironman.

I hope I’m not being too optimistic, but I feel like I’m bouncing back to running and biking fairly well, after not doing it for almost a year. So, I’m thinking in 2017 I want to do the St. George 70.3 and then in 2018 attempt my first Ironman (not sure which one).

I’ve got plenty of time to train for both races. But, it was brought up last night, that it does take A LOT of time to train for a 1/2 and full Ironman. My friend compared it to having a second job for 3-4 months. With currently having a 2 1/2 month old in the house, am I being unrealistic about wanting to do a 1/2 Ironman next year? I’ve held down 2 jobs at once before and our family seems to do ok. Do we like it? No. But it’s what we had to do at the time, so we did it.

I brought this up to my husband last night and he said ok, but I’m not sure he fully understands the time commitment it will take.

What are your thoughts/opinions on all of this? Have you trained for a 70.3 or 140.6 with small children at home?