My Personal Development

I apologize for not blogging in forever. For a while, shit just hit the fan and I haven’t had time for anything extracurricular.

But, since I blogged last, I have decided to become a coach for Beachbody. Don’t worry, that’s not all I will blog about. I’ve got plenty else to talk about too.

But…part of being a coach for Beachbody, is you have to work on your personal development. The company wants to help you get in shape physically, but also emotionally.

The first book I was encouraged to read is called The Five Second Rule by Mel Robbins.


I used a free credit on Audible and downloaded it and listened to it.

First off, I just LOVE Mel Robbins. As she is narrating the book, its like she is talking to you in a room. Its not monotone or anything. Oh, and Mel gets bonus points for cursing .I just loved it.

I’ve been able to start applying the rule in a couple different aspects of my life and I’m seeing progress

I don’t want to give too much away, but its a simple rule, yet once you know about the rule and apply it to your life, you will see how amazing things will change.

Have you read this book? What aspects of your life do you use the rule? Do you have any good personal development books I need to read?


21 Day Fix & Running

So, I’m finally to a point with my anxiety that I’ve got it under control enough that I feel like I can focus on working out again & losing weight. 

This is week 2 of me working out. Week 1 I did Country Heat by Beachbody & I started a Couch to 5k program. I’ve decided it’ll be easiest & I’ve got a better chance at success if I do the Beachbody workouts on the days my husband works & I do my running on the days he doesn’t. Week 1 I lost 2.3 lbs!

I was going to keep up with the Country Heat for week 2, but then I logged in to start the video & it said “elite” & that scared the crap out of me. I’m not coordinated AT ALL, & I even struggled through week 1 of Country Heat, but it was a good intro back to working out. 

So I decided to try 21 Day Fix. HOLY MOLY!!! I love it, yet i hate it. It’s pushing me. It’s pushing in a way I pushed myself when I was training for triathlons. I might complain that I have D.O.M.S., but really deep down inside, i LOVE it. This program is 21 days long (duh!) & I’m excited to see how much I’ve improved in those 3 wks.  
My running, I’m slow. But for some reason this time, seeing the slow paces I’m running doesn’t seem to bother me too much. 

With the Couch to 5k program, I run 3 times a week. Week 1, day 2, my pace was like a 15:40/mile. I ran around a paved trail at a nearby park. It has some slight hills, but if you’re not trained for it & you’re barely starting out running, they can kick your ass. Week 1, day 3, I ran from my parents house up to my old high school & ran around the track. My pace was a 14:30/ mile. Can you believe that???? That was a HUGE confidence boost that I needed. Granted there weren’t as many hills, but still. I’m excited to go running this week. I know doing the 21DayFix will help with my running to because I’m building muscle. 

Back Issues

I’ve been having back issues for the past, oh, probably 6 months. Right down above my tailbone, in the small of my back, it hurts REALLY bad. It doesn’t feel like sciatica (had that when I was 2 1/2 months pregnant). I finally got tired of the pain and finally went to the doctor.

It took a month to get in to the doctor, but she did a physical exam and said that since I didn’t have any trauma to make my back hurt (I woke up one morning and got out of bed and it’s hurt ever since) that she wanted to do an MRI. I had an MRI on April 1st and it came back saying I had a moderately herniated disc between L5 and S1.

See that spongy thing under L5 before you get to the sacrum? That’s the disc that the MRI says is herniated.

So, they said the treatment for that was a cortisone shot/epidural in my back and to do physical therapy. So I went in for the injection. It hurt like a b*tch. They told me it would take 3-4 days for it to kick in and for me to see a difference. I didn’t do physical therapy only because my husband started physical therapy right then for his shoulder so I talked to the P.T. & asked him how necessary P.T. was. He basically told me that one session would be good, but then he’d send me home with stretches and all would be good. Well, I figured since I’m doing the 21 Day Yoga Retreat through Beachbody that would work, so I didn’t do P.T.

3 weeks later and my back is still KILLING me. So, we called the doctor again. They’ve now prescribed me some Prednisone (fun, fun!) and told me to do P.T. This time I am doing P.T. I had my first session this last Monday.

My P.T. is awesome! I’ve been to him before when I broke my leg & ankle about 10 years ago. But, he listens to my story, does kind of a physical exam and starts working with me. Based off of my symptoms, he doesn’t think it’s a herniated disc. He thinks it has something to do with my S.I. Joint (I’m vaguely familiar with that). He did get concerned when at the end of the P.T. session I told him that when I walked in to therapy, my pain level was at a 4, but as I’m leaving it’s at a 7. NOTHING that we did in P.T. helped it and it should have relieved even the slightest bit of pain.

So, I got my P.T. a copy of my MRI and he’s going to take a look at it and see if he happens to see anything different. Yes, I know he’s not a doctor, but he’s got a lot of school and has to be familiar with how the body works to be a P.T.; therefore a second look at the MRI might help. Plus, we’ve decided to get a 2nd opinion on my back. I’ve got an appointment with a different doctor on Monday to see if they see anything different.

I just want my back to stop hurting. I can’t stand for long periods of time. I can’t sit for long periods of time. Yoga ends up being painful. Sitting on a bike hurts like a b*tch. Plus, when I go running, like clock work, at 1 1/2 miles, my left foot goes numb. I think, and so does my P.T., we think that has something to do with my back injury too.

So…I’ll keep you posted on all this crap too. 🙂

Weight Loss Barriers

I know I’ve touched on this before, but I’ve found prompts on what to blog about and this seemed like a good one. Especially with my place in life right now.

We ALL have barriers with weight loss in one way or another. Everybody’s is different. I lost weight 9 years ago and dropped 114 lbs., but have gained it back since (long story). But, I’m at it again, but I’ve got my barriers.

Weight Loss BarrierI think the first trick is to identify what your barriers are and then you can work on getting past those barriers. Oh, I’ve been able to EASILY identify my barriers. But getting past those barriers has been the tough thing for me.

One of the things that stands in my way is I haven’t found a balance between me time and family time yet. I’ve got a 14 year old, a 12 year old and a 1 year old. The 14 and 12 year old are special needs, so that doesn’t make it any easier. The 1 year old, he’s just a 1 year old learning to explore this new world he’s in. My life is VERY busy. I get up at 6:00 a.m. to get the kids ready for school, get them all off to where they need to go (school, therapy, babysitter, etc.), then I’m off to work for 8 hours…that’s IF I don’t have therapy appointments to be to for said kids, etc. Then, I get off work at 5:00 pm, go pick up all the kids from 3 different places, go home, attempt to make something for dinner. Do a load of wash, get kids doing their homework, get them bathed, and then it’s time to get the 1 year old down to bed. Right now, I’m the only one that he will let put him to bed…in my bed (I know, I know. He shouldn’t be sleeping in my bed…there’s a whole other post I could write on that.). By the time I get the baby to sleep, I’m absolutely exhausted!!! Last thing I want to do is doing an intense workout, etc.

But…here is how I’m getting through it. Right now my husband is out of work (he’s injured). Therefore, every once in a blue moon, the 1 year old will sit and relax with Dad and I can get a 30 minute yoga session in right now. A month ago, I joined Beachbody. One of the best things I could’ve done. I haven’t been able to run because after 1 1/2 miles, my feet go numb and I don’t feel it safe to run like that. I can’t bike right now because my back injury (that’s another post too. Lol.). But, Beachbody allows me to do a different type of workout every day. I started with the 21 Day Yoga Retreat in hopes that it helps with my back. So, that’s how I’m managing to get a workout in right now. Once my husband goes back to work (don’t know when), it’ll be interesting to see how I’m able to manage to get a workout in then.

Another barrier I have is my anxiety. I know that might sound weird that anxiety stops my workouts, when in reality, anxiety is one of THE BEST things you can do for a workout. 4 years ago I did my first 1/2 Ironman. I was in AWESOME shape. I know what my body is capable. I was running 9:15-9:30 miles. Now when I step on a treadmill or go outside, I’m lucky if I’m faster than a 14:00/mile. That just makes my anxiety shoot through the roof. It’s frustrating seeing where I was 4 years ago and seeing where I am now.

But…here is how I’m getting through it. Like I said a paragraph or 2 ago, I’ve just had to go in a different direction right now. To save myself from going insane, I very rarely go running right now and I don’t have a bike to ride. So, I do Beachbody. And thinking “It’s only 30 minutes” really helps. Right now, with the yoga, I will be watching and doing the stuff in the video and it doesn’t feel like very long and then I look up and the timer says I’m 1/2 way through it. Score!!!

One last of many barriers I have is my eating. I’m an emotional eater. With all of the stresses in my life right now, I like to deal with my anxiety and stress by eating. A big ole piece of cake with TONS of frosting makes me feel better. Plus, my family has issues with portion distortion. My husband made dinner the other night while I did my yoga and I came out and there was a heaping plate of food waiting for me. It was probably 3-4 times the amount than what I was supposed to eat.

But…here is how I’m getting through it. I have to have a mindset before I even sit down to dinner that if there’s too much on my plate, I DO NOT have to eat it all. That plate of food the other night that my husband made…it was DELICIOUS. But I probably only ate 1/3 of it. The rest is divided up in to dishes for me to take for lunch this week. Another thing that helps me is I don’t deprive myself of treats. I will allow myself to have one “sweet” thing to eat a week. I figure if I completely deprive myself of it, I’m eventually going to cave and just binge up everything sweet. We all know THAT’S not good. Another thing I do, is I track all of my food on MyFitnessPal. I’ve been doing that for a long time. That seems to help. The last thing I do is I have started drinking A LOT more water and less soda. No, water isn’t as fun as soda, but if I’m able to cut soda out completely, I know I’ll see the pounds just fall off. I’m down to 1 can of soda a day. Next week, it’ll be none.

So…with all that being said…what’s in your way and keeping you from accomplishing your weight loss goals? What are you doing to get through it?