Body Image

As I’ve mentioned in previous posts, my boyfriend (we live together) got custody of his 2 kids earlier this year. His daughter just turned 12 & his son is almost 10.

It’s taken me a long time to write this post, because I’m not sure exactly how i want to say what i want to say.

It hasn’t been happening a lot lately, but towards the end of the last school year, my boyfriend & i would catch his daughter saying a couple of times “i need to lose weight”, or we’d be in the grocery store & she’d point out weight loss supplements.

First I’d get a little offended & still do because I’ve worked damn hard to lose my 114 lbs. I know it looks like i could still lose a little weight, & i probably could, but I’m fit, & I’m ALOT healthier than i was 114 lbs ago.

Now…for my boyfriend’s daughter…this kind of put up red flags for me. Why? Because she’s skinny. She’s TOO skinny. She’s one of the pickiest eaters I’ve ever known. When i was 12, i was a picky eater, but nothing like this.

There are some meals where she’ll barely touch what’s on her plate & then say I’m full.

She has gotten better, but she’s still got a lot of room to go.

It wouldn’t surprise me if some of the kids at her school have an influence on her. She goes to a middle school where a lot of the kids are more financially well off than we are. For example, last school year, she came home from school wearing dollar store makeup. Now…don’t get me wrong, i think makeup has a time & a place, but her dad & i agreed that 6th grade wasn’t the right place. She tried to pass it off as a black eye, but I’m not that dumb. Lol. I tried all the tricks in the book when i was her age. This is one of many reasons, i think she’s letting her peers have too much influence on her. I’ll even catch her trying to strut down the sidewalk, etc.

As a triathlete, I’m trying to instill in her that exercise can be fun. That she needs to be a strong woman, not necessarily physically, but emotionally, mentally, etc. And with everything she’s been through this past year, from my personal experience, exercise would benefit her. But…you can’t convince her of that.

I just hope she grows in to the strong woman i know she has the potential to be, & i will do everything in my power to help her get there, because her mom sure isn’t.

Here are a couple of my favorite inspirational quotes on this topic (thanks to the SBM Army for assisting):

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Do you have any thoughts on this particular topic?

My Grandma & Vons

I was scrolling through my list of things I wanted to blog about & came across this topic I’d totally forgotten about.

Last month my family & I went on vacation to San Diego (one day I’ll get around to that recap). Right next door to our hotel was a Vons grocery store.

Up in Utah we don’t have this chain of grocery store, but I’m familiar with it because my grandma lived in Las Vegas & it was one of her favorite grocery stores. It was one of the closest stores to her house too. My uncle worked for Vons too.

Any ways…I went through the store, got what I needed & headed to the check out. Just like every other grocery store now, they asked if I had one of their preferred customer cards so I could get the sale prices & get points for fuel or whatever.

I explained to the cashier that I was from out of town & we don’t have Vons in Utah. I explained that my grandma used to shop at Vons all the time & she might have a card. So…I gave him my grandma’s phone #. She didn’t have any points, but she did have an acct.

The funny thing about this whole story…my grandma passed away 7 yrs ago & hasn’t had that phone # for 9 yrs.

It just made me laugh because now she does have points on that acct & I’m sure she’s up in heaven just laughing at me & my antics.

God, I miss her & my grandpa.

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Are your grandparents still alive? Do you have a good relationship with them?

My Favourite Gym

The other day I had the chance to go back to my old stomping grounds & go swimming at the gym where I started my triathlon journey.

It was like a blast from the past. I’ve decided this is my favorite gym. I’ve gone to 4 or 5 local rec centers & this is definitely the nicest.

They’ve got an AWESOME weight room. They’ve got equipment that most rec centers don’t (glute press) & they’ve got a HUGE hallway that you can do a BILLION lunges in & not have to worry about turning around because you’ve run out of room.

There’s something different about their pool too. The water seemed clearer. I think the actual pool is made with a different material too. The water is FREEZING though.

I don’t know if it’s because I felt like I had a “home field” advantage or what, but when I went swimming there the other day, it was my fastest swim in a loooooong time. I felt awesome.

I wish I could go swimming there more often, but it’s about 30 min away from where I live now.

Granted this gym does have it’s downfalls, but every gym does. This gym…depending on the night you go…there are a TON of meat head weight lifters in the weight area. Plus if you go swimming at the wrong time…you have to fight for a swim lane between 3 high schools that use the pool as their practice pool.

Do you have a favorite gym?

Back to School

So the kids started school this week. I find it SO odd that school started on a Wednesday. When I went to school, it always started on a Monday. But…whatever.

I’m really hoping this year is better for the kids than last year. Last year, .  they switched schools 1/2 way through the year & T switched school format. At her old school 6th grade was considered elementary school, but when they switched schools, her knew school was 6th grade is middle school & you have 7 different classes a day. It definitely took her some getting used to.

Last year we also took both kids off their ADHD meds. So that was a struggle for them too. But, within the last month, they’ve both gone back on their meds.

I’ve made a deal with both kids that for each “A” they get each term, they’ll get $2 & on their final report card of the year, for each “A” they get, I’ll give them $5. That might not sound like a lot of money, but it’s all I can afford & for 2 kids who have never been taught the value of money, or have never been given an allowance, that’s a lot of money.

So…here’s to another school year.

My New Job

I know I’ve mentioned this before, but when I was a little kid & I was always asked “What do you want to be when you grow up?” my answer was always that I wanted to be a cashier.

When I was about 5-7 yrs old, my grandma & grandpa lived in an old little railroad town in Nevada. I remember going & visiting them & going to the grocery store & as we were standing in line just watching the cashier. It was something I was FASCINATED by.

Now fast forward 30 yrs. I’m almost 35 yrs old & I’m going back to my roots. I just quit an office manager job because it was too stressful, among other things. You will now find me with 2 part time jobs…both of them I am a cashier. And you know what? I LOVE it! It’s something I’m good at.

When I was in high school, I was a cashier at a department store. Then I moved up on the ladder of cashiering & I got a job at a store that’s similar to Wal-Mart, but more expensive. They have the groceries, clothes, everything. While I was at that store I was given the award of fastest cashier with the most accuracy.

I then took a break from cashiering & tried out corporate America. I had a bunch of different jobs. Call center jobs, payroll jobs, etc.

I find it interesting that I’ve kind of gone full circle now & I’m back to cashiering again.

I just hate the training you have to go through. Ugh. It’s a fairly simple job. But…you gotta do what you gotta do.

Since I won’t be working in corporate America any more & I won’t have a strict 9-5 schedule, I’m wondering if it might be a little easier to get my workouts in. I don’t know. Maybe I’m just dreaming.

I guess we’ll just see how it goes. I’m happy to be back doing something I love & something I’m good at.

Less Stress

Yesterday, a huge weight was lifted off of my shoulders. I quit my job. I worked for almost a year as an office manager. It was becoming TOO much stress. I’m not going to go in to a whole lot, because…well, I just don’t want to.

But, life became miserable with this job. I dreaded going to work every day. I’m taking a HUGE pay cut, but it’ll be worth it because I have less stress.

I’m really looking forward to it.

My Back

It’s currently 3:48 a.m. on Saturday & I’m wide awake in pain.

A week ago I did the Hit & Run 5k & I think I screwed up my back on one of the obstacles. It was the 2nd to last obstacle. You had to climb up these stairs & then jump off a platform & try & land on this giant blue ball.

Well, because we all know I have THE WORST coordination in the world…Lol…I clearly didn’t land on the ball. I bounced off the ball & did some type of somersault mid air & then came down & landed funny.

It hurt a little bit when it happened but I got up & kept going & didn’t notice the pain.

A couple days later is when it started to hurt again & it hasn’t stopped.

I’ve been putting heat on it & I’ve been using Icy Hot stuff too. Yesterday it didn’t feel too bad, so I went for a short run. Bad move on my part.

It’s been hurting ever since.

I can’t afford to go to the Dr (no health insurance), so I guess we just have to ride this storm.

I’ve got a 5k this morning with the boyfriend & I’m sure we’ll take it easy…but after that in guessing no running until back is better *sigh*.